12/23/2024
I never had one of those lives where I could take it easy and just relax.
While everyone else could sit back and enjoy the ride, I had days full of challenges and nights full of struggle.
There wasn’t time to rest or the chance to do what I wanted..
For as long as I can remember, my life has been a journey of fires and storms.
Fires that tried to consume me and storms that were intent on drowning me..
None of that ever stopped me, it only made me stronger.
There were many times that I was forced to my knees fighting for survival in a world that seemed determined to bring me down..
But each time, I got up, dusted myself off and found a way to keep going.
No one ever gave me much of a chance to make it, but then, I don’t need anyone’s approval or permission to be the independent, strong and empowered person that I am.
I’m not the one who will ask for help because I’ve never had anyone helping me during the hardest times of my life.
I’ve had to fight, battle and scrap every step of the way for everything I have.
So, I definitely don’t need to be fixed, saved or completed and I’m not holding out for a hero.
I learned a long time ago that no one was showing up to bail me out of the hard stuff..so I did what I had to do and became the hero of my own story.
Maybe I don’t have a fancy costume or have a made up name, but i do have a superpower:
I’m fiercely unstoppable, each and every day.
That doesn’t mean I don’t get knocked down, that doesn’t mean I don’t have bad days.. Actually the whole last year sucked!
But I don’t stay down and l’ll never give up. I have too much of my Mother's blood in me for that
So, all the times that the world and life tried to break me?
All that did was make me stronger,wiser and better.
Now, thanks to all the people that hurt me, all the days that shattered me and all the times that I failed.
They taught me that I can do anything and overcome the obstacles that crash into my life.
I’m more than just a person, a brave heart and iron spirit.
I am a strong woman..and there’s nothing I can’t do.
The above is paraphrased from Ravenwolfs writings and it just really spoke to me.
The following are my own heartfelt words.
And then I met a man who through the years showed me that I didn't have to go it alone. That with a true man who showed through his actions and unwavering support, that I could depend on my partner, that I could trust him to look after me, physically, mentally, emotionally. That I am worthy of love and respect and someone who was proud of my strength and intelligence and wasn't intimidated by them.
And then I lost him. And then I lost myself. I didn't understand just how much it was going to hurt. He was my rock.
However others found me during this period in my life. They became close to me and then completely broke my trust. Stole from me, lied about me, belittled me, and now once again I will never trust another mother fu**in person so don't even.
Boy that was cleansing 😃
